…every little thing is gonna be alright. (Bob Marley, anyone?)
Since I went on a mini vacation this week, I have a lot to catch up on for the #31DBBB challenge. However, before I move on to the next steps in that challenge, I think I may need to soften any concerns that might have arose from something I posted a couple weeks ago. A few weeks ago, I posted a couple pretty vague posts (here and here) about how I felt God was telling me “No” (for now, at least) in response to a prayer. Apparently, I must have made the posts sound far more alarming than I intended (I did use life-changing in there, so maybe that sounded alarms), because some concerned people have surfaced.
First of all, I’m completely enamored that I have readers that care (all five of you that there are), but I must apologize for causing alarm. I did think a lot before I posted those entries. I went ahead and posted them because I thought it was important to share that God answers prayers, even though that answer is sometimes “No”. And I left the posts vague, because I was a little embarrassed to share what I was struggling with. However, after hearing some of the concerns, I thought it might be best to clear the air.
I was struggling with being a stay-at-home mom vs. work-at-home mom vs. working mom. I wasn’t sure I was supposed to have my graphic & web design business anymore. With my three kids growing & getting more active (and taking less/shorter naps), I was having trouble finding time to work. And talking to clients (on the phone) was next to impossible. However, my husband & I are trying to get out of debt, so staying at home with the kids (and not working at all) wouldn’t help us with that goal. I could work a real job, but then we’d have to put the kids in daycare, and factor in that expense. I didn’t know what I should do, I was tired and stressed.
I thought it was time for me to close my graphic & web design business. I did close my design queue and didn’t take on any new projects, so I could sort everything out. My husband & I talked a lot about it, and I prayed for God’s guidance. Really, I was unsure about what to do until this week. When I was on my mini vacation (with hubbs), I missed our kids like crazy. Everything I did on vacation, I found myself wishing that our kids were there doing it with me. That helped me realize that I really like being home with my kids all day, every day. It also helped me realize, that to decrease my stress, I need to have a set schedule for when I work and only select clients who are a good fit for me (and I for them). Hubbs even suggested that we could put the kids in daycare for a couple days each week, so I can work on projects.
What I’m getting at is, it’s going to be alright. We are going to be alright. I’m sorry if I concerned any of you.
Don’t Worry…. Be Happy!
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